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I sort this on about 2mg of the substance, plus a bit little bit of stims. 4th day in a row of utilizing, moderately assured I will take break after this. Although ought to in all probability switch the answer to a smaller vial that matches in a kind of time lock safes and set it for a month or one thing. Onto the meat of this put up:
Three HO PCP is my first disso expertise, aside from a extremely small (in leisure phrases) dose of DXM a number of years in the past that I by no means continued with since I could not stand the style of cough syrup and did not know in regards to the extraction strategies on the time. Realistically ought to have began with a extra forgiving/standard disso however have all the time been contrarian/stubbornly drawn in the direction of the obscure and minority opinions in hobbies (should you can or ought to name drug use a passion).
Did a small allergy take a look at with an immeasurably small amount the day I acquired it, had no actual emotions. Made my volumetric resolution in PG three days in the past, and after making it determined in opposition to higher judgement to take equal dose of 1mg. My excuse was simply persevering with the allergy take a look at, realistically simply wished to get excessive.
Not sure if I’m only a disso light-weight, or maybe my resolution wasn’t totally dissolved but and I really took extra due to a hotspot within the PG, however holy fuck that was quite a bit stronger than I anticipated. Regardless of taking principally greater doses these following days, I wasn’t capable of fairly replicate that 1 mg expertise.
I used to be BUZZING. Minor dissociative results, however was getting these chills in my physique like if you hear an incredible a part of a tune, however for longer with out a lot stimulus. Simply occurring on it is personal. Felt very cathartic. I have not listened to it since I recorded it that evening, however recorded I feel 30 minutes of an audio journal of me simply speaking about my life. 3-HO-PCP would not have the therapeutic research behind it like ketamine does, although after this expertise I can see how this drug class might be helpful for that. I am nonetheless on it however I suppose I will see if I get an afterglow the subsequent few days.
I do know dissos aren’t classically visible experiences, however I used to be getting some. I knew my shadow was my shadow, nevertheless it did not really feel prefer it was. It felt bigger and extra concrete than it ought to have. My mind felt it was a separate particular person and was confused why there was one other particular person in my dwelling. I waved whats up and it waved again.
I had fairly loopy CEVs on this. Perhaps since I used to be making an attempt to fall asleep on it and it was amplifying that dream state you typically get when falling asleep, these instances if you get not fairly lucid goals however if you’re about to go to sleep and your goals are very robust, proper earlier than you rocket again awake. Tried to recreate it the subsequent day and never fully correct and doubtless the results of minor mania making me assume it’s higher than what it’s, however [visuals vaguely reminiscent of this.](https://i.imgur.com/ileaENr.png) Not static, however transferring and morphing from visuals like that and different fully totally different environments vaguely harking back to 90s animations like that vaporwave tries to emulate.
Had poor sleep that evening, and work the subsequent day. I mistakenly had the impression that because it had anesthetic properties it might be straightforward to sleep on. It wasn’t. Remorse it since that was the perfect impacts on this 4 day binge and so they weren’t replicated the next days.
Will not elaborate a lot on the next days since they weren’t fairly as fascinating as this primary day. The following day I did a complete of 9mg. The consequences had been robust however had swung from that mania to extra simply dissociative impacts, feeling heavy and gradual. Actually was simply dosing greater to attempt to get that buzzing mania I had the day prior to this however by no means acquired there. Most notable have an effect on was when taking a look at my telephone, watched some movies of people that reside in vans parked exterior stunning locations in nature. They regarded very good and felt extra like I used to be holding a portal fairly than a display screen. If it was greater, I assumed, perhaps I might leap into it and go there like in Mario 64.
Total, whereas nice, actually simply felt precisely like what it’s. An anesthetic. Good for anxiousness, however removes lots of different emotions as properly should you do not attain mania. Ate some chocolate, and hardly tasted it.
Yesterday, the third day, I did really feel a mildly manic afterglow. It was nice and I felt nice whereas I used to be taking my morning bathe. This delicate mania did persuade myself to take a bit extra.
I did not write down my doses today however I do not imagine it was greater than 6mg. I did briefly really feel that buzzing mania although, not as robust as the primary day and never as lengthy, nevertheless it was there. It was whereas I went exterior for a bit so this substance has informed me the identical factor as psyches have, that I might actually like to maneuver exterior of the town and get again to the nation. Simply someplace I can stroll out my backdoor and see nothing artifical, and faux I am the final man on earth. Such a comforting feeling that I am unable to get within the metropolis because you all the time see concrete, litter, hear the sirens and highways, odor the smog and cigarettes. I wish to be alone someplace.
Immediately for actually no cause I did 2mg extra, and that is the place I really feel like stopping. Had no legit goal to bump that bit extra. And instantly after dosing I spotted that I used to be nonetheless feeling that loosey goosey feeling, decreased motor management. Both I am nonetheless a bit excessive after letting it construct up in my system, or I am increase unfavorable impacts. That dose has kicked in at this level whereas typing all of the above. Barely lessened motor management, really feel spaced out.
Not an entirely nice, however positively fascinating expertise. We’ll see if I get a pleasant afterglow the subsequent few days, or simply really feel retarded like I do now. Cheap assured this was my final dose as I do not really feel delusionally sober proper now, I do really feel spaced out. And truthfully do wish to return to feeling sober. Luckily do have some noopept round and I simply took a few of that, hopefully helps.
If I had simply saved it to that at some point, and finished it at an applicable time I feel I might be good. No cause to push it to the 4 days. If I had been consistantly manic I’d in all probability be in area proper now although. Remind me to steer clear of the MEO variant.