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Lol I used to be texting quite a bit with my girlfriend throughout this expertise and referred to as it the holy trinity, 5mapb+4acomet+DCK. I am kinda psychedelic naive, although I’ve had a decade lengthy plus curiosity in them, however all the time discovered it difficult to get the results I needed out of them so I kinda misplaced my enthusiasm.
Anyway I’m lastly feeling like I am lastly getting the experiences I’ve examine for all these years. I used to be all the time kinda exhausting headed with substances nevertheless it does seem to be combining issues actually makes it simpler to push issues a little bit additional. So at round 7PM I dosed 122mg of 5MAPB (me and my girlfriend name it “maple” lol and he or she loves how candy I’m on it) together with 15mg 4-aco-met (we name this one “comet”, noticed somebody refer it to by that title right here and I feel it matches the vibe completely) By the way in which 6’3″ 265 kilos so the 5mapb is not too loopy excessive I do not suppose. So the come up I felt considerably anxious throughout, however I used to be in a position to do some decreased respiratory excercises (stuff I picked up from “the oxygen benefit” by patrick mckeown) and that acquired me in a pleasant relaxed state going into it.
The open eyed visuals turned out to be the perfect I’ve ever had. I used to be residence in my house alone and felt sort of antsy a lot of the evening. Spammed my girlfriend with texts, reached out to my sister who I am not particularly shut with, and an outdated buddy from again in WI the place I used to be raised) My aim for the evening was to put again and see if I may get any closed eye visuals, however the urge to work together undoubtedly proved too robust. Anytime I laid again and losed my eyes I solely seeemed to get one thing visible starting, however then it will simply disappear as soon as I attempted to maintain my consideration on it. Sort of makes me consider a wild animal that darts away and flees as quickly because it notices you approaching it. I wasn’t too bummed out by it although as a result of I used to be actually into the music.
On the come up I listened to an outdated bluetech album after which a tipper album I have never heard a lot of but. As soon as issues picked up for actual, the music had converted to love 2 or Three hours of synthwave which I believed actually went so properly with it. I nonetheless had loads of moments of tension, however the maple positive did assist clean out these tough edges. I did have one second the place the closed eyed visuals appear to get actually start to depth for a second and the blackness behind my eyes completly coated and this form of geometric but amorpheous blue and purple community of one thing or one other, it appeared prefer it had a variety of depth and that I could possibly be probably enveloped by it, however then I form of snapped out of it and it disappeared.
Though I actually wnated these visuals I wasn’t too bummed out after they pulled away once more as a result of the vibe was so pleasant and upbeat, even when I used to be caught in residence and issues felt empty. I believed quite a bit about my household dynamics, how individuals may see me, my sons and my future with my girlfriend.
I had predosed 25mg of DCK to do afterward within the journey (me and my girlfriend name this one “unusual”, as a result of I refuse to consult with it as “dick” lol and I heard somebody consult with MXE as “unusual” right here and that title actually simply appeared to seize the essence of my 53mg DCK exprience completely) So I shot that one down the hatch 3.5 hours after my authentic dose and ultimately converted to the album “Damaged soul jamboree” by Tipper and HOLY. SHIT. I really feel like that dude it simply such a genius along with his sound design and manufacturing. I could not consider somebody made songs that sound precisely like what tripping to me appears like. It felt like I used to be in an aquarium but in addition outer house. LOL. Then after that album youtube qued up “Jettison Thoughts Hatch” which is one I have never even heard a lot but and once more I used to be simply blown away. His songs sound like somebody sort of insect alien ecology and all these refined little sound results layered into issues and all on their very own little spirit paths but managing to synchronistically mix so completely with all the opposite ones. The disso actually introduced issues again up some and made the music a lot extra psychedelic sounding to me, however once more with out the stimulating fringe of simply rising the psychedelic. PERFECT. I hear individuals say psyches and dissos go collectively like peanut butter and jelly and this little temporary expertise appears to essentially show that to me. I additionally began getting one thing like closed eyed visuals as soon as once more nevertheless it appeared like what I used to be seeing was my mind lol behind the darkness. Simply this squiggly mass after which the entire connections firing off and becoming a member of and scattering and networking. Fairly neat, but in addition not too shiny so a little bit underwhelming.
So anyway, after letting tipper soften my thoughts for the subsequent couple of hours or so I used to be beginning to really feel like I used to be prepared to show off and sleep, however nonetheless far too stimulated. And a headache was starting to kind. So out of character I took 2 hydrocodones my girlfriend had leftover from her surgical procedure (she’s solely wanted to take them like 2 or Three instances I feel and is all healed up now). I’ve by no means really dabbled in opiates and I actually wasn’t anticipating a lot however man did it kill my headache and simply depart me feeling so content material and relaxed. I additionally acquired palms down essentially the most attention-grabbing hypnagogic like hallucinations I’ve ever had. There have been machine elf like scenenes of little grains of sand that will continuously reassemble themselves into creatures and scenes of cartoony landscapes that will develop and stand up and fall and shift to new scenes, plant and coral life simply blossoming up and descaying with little nanobots technicians tending all of it alongside the way in which. Then there have been bizarre fucking lovecraftian like nightmare creatures, however they had been additionally cartoony and the grotesqueness simply turned out to be valuable and nonthreatening. Simply zanny stuff. Extra tremendous surreal creatures and making love and mixing after which spreadining. The hallcuinations had been nonetheless not tremendous shiny by any means, nevertheless it was nonetheless straightforward to discern particulars right here and there they usually had been soo complicated. As somebody who’s all the time preferred drawing, it is so good to have lastly actually seen my very own creativeness. Or no matter it’s lol. Someway refering it to easily as creativeness would not appear to essentially do it justice. However no matter.
For sure I’m far more involved in wanting extra into opiates. And saving them for particular events, like mixing in with pyschedelics both for the height or the comedown. I am undoubtedly wanting ahead to a few years of treating to myself to reasearch each month or two.
I am gonna share a picture that I drew on my iPad ([https://i.imgur.com/QTh5rTG.jpg](https://i.imgur.com/QTh5rTG.jpg)). I used to be taking a look at it final evening whereas on the holy trinity and felt like for the primary time understood what I used to be attempting to attain with it regardless that I had no thought initially I used to be attempting to attain something different than simply drawing to cross time. Lol. Thanks for repeating my lengthy rambley journey report 🙂 Protected travels on the market ya’ll